Bajatmerc

I am dating a girl I met in Grand Rapids Michigan. We dated for a few months,then she went back to live with her parents in China. It's been half a year. I will wait another year and a half. She calls me her prince, and I try to be that for her.

Personality  I have been noticing that my personality seems to be very different from day to day. Obviously there are different moods that come, and go. Seems like some days I am 100x more agressive while other days I don't care about anything. Does anyone else get that feeling that when you wake up you just inhabited a body that you don't really seem to be connected to, more like your body is just an industrial tool like a front end loader? Like you are just the operator, and the body is the machine for that day. Sometimes it seems like what I have done over time with and to my body has made it part of me, but then other times it just seem

the harder, the smoother, and the rougher     harder---smoother---rougher---harder---smoother---rougher       Often times when someone has a bad relationship they beef up how difficult it will be for them to open up to another person. This insures that the next person they open up to will be a player.   See the harder it is to get a date with someone, the worse individual that the person will get a date with. The person will have to be smoother in order to get them to open up.  People become smooth by being players. This will make the break up rougher since you will have done more protecting, and got hurt just as bad.

flying by the seat of my pants   We'll see how this goes. Alys and I talked tonight, and she wants to try. We worked out some things. I won't know till I see her tomorrow or thursday how things are going. Well it's Friday and she hasn't changed a thing so she didn't really want to try. Kind of interesting. She would ask me how I could just let someone go and move on. Well, if the person you are letting go isn't the person you thought they were then why would you want them still? This basically means if I like my blue toy truck very much, but if one day it turned into a turd then I would prolly get rid of the turd very quickly right?

      I want I want I want a picture of me up on that podium pointing my finger in anger this is about solutions, its not about blame removing people might make things the same Don't get in my face, I'll alienate you just as easy from up there standing on my milk crate without the clout voting doesn't get us the change I want I shout I want to catylize burning our way out of dependence beneath them take your money for my nutrition take your money for my transportation Freedom isn't about the government being independent I'm goona get myself some chickens They won't fix fuel issue until it thickens I want to express the answer to